1) The antidepressants seem to be doing their job. I've got my 3 week follow up with my doctor today. Personally, I'm wondering if my dosage shouldn't be upped just a little bit, but I guess that's more his to determine than mine. They've helped take some of the edge off of the crushing depression, though, so I'm thankful for that at least.
2) I've wanted to send W and e-mail (or tell her in person) with a variety of my thoughts and feelings on things these past few weeks/months.
I've written some of them down, but I don't really plan on sending. It'd be counter-productive and frankly I don't think she'd process any of what I said - or would take it the wrong way. Some of the things I want to say are hurtful (from insults to downplaying the importance of our six year relationship), others are sentimental stupidity.
I've managed to detach a little more; I don't spend as much time thinking about her as I used to. The lack of Tuesdays has been nice - I've gone two without seeing her and I've noticed a decrease in stress.
