My h wants to come home. This is at a point where I have downloaded divorce forms and filled them out in pencil. I was about to call a solicitor. I have had a couple of real estate agents value the house for me etc etc. All in prep for me to move ahead with the D as I believed I was done and couldn't take him back.
We had a talk yesterday where he poured his heart out as to wanting to be with me and he was so loving and intense that I wanted to be with him so we ML. He still has a girlfriend.
Now he wants us to spend time together and has asked me to come with d and stay o/n at his place. I refused and said that I would love to but he needs to break up with E first. He asked if it would be different if he came to our house - I said no..same deal. Break up with her first.
I don't know if I ML with him because I really wanted to or because I was *ahem* horny or because I just couldn't bear to reject him and have him mad and upset.
He's upset now because the things I said today make it sound like I was using him for sex. I guess in some ways I was.
I don't know what to do.
I told him I want him to followup on his words with actions. eg breaking up with E, going to counselling etc. He won't give me a straight answer and keeps focussing on 'but I just want to be with you' without committing to some things that I need from him. Fair enough he says he's also worried things won't work out but I said that I refuse to be the OW and that he is keeping a foot in both camps.
Should I cut him loose again and tell him to leave me be or take one more chance with him? So many of my friends know all the details *cringe* because I was so sure I was done....I don't know whether to listen to my pride and my head or give him yet another chance.
