W less angry with me, but not ready for piecing

[Forrest Gump]

The weird thing about this DB place is life comes to life.

Lan I am doing ok. Remember I am two steps ahead.

I am making you think.... That is good. Even though I have no idea where I am going. Trust me this is the blind leading the blind!!

She had a hand in this. The sarcasm did not come through.

I feel the bending. What if she feels like she is bending too? DB that.

I may be 3 steps as I am having sex.

Reading High points...

Ok just gonna throw this out there. Sleeping in the same bed. Little voice telling you to just do it. DB telling you to wait. Where is the happy medium?

Little voice tells you something missing? (From stories) Trust me I feel ya.

Maybe you feel you have laid it all on the line and yet ... Nothing?

My new thing.. Break the ice.


Example: Woman at work (married) Father died around the same time as death in my family. I reached out. Time passes and she sees me in tears at work over all the stuff. She buys me a card and some candy. Feel better. Me back at home. Christmas. 1st one without father. Her crying. I went and bought a bouquet/card. Wife (me back at home) finds emails about it. I lie.. (waiting for her to flip out) I thought there was something wrong with me doing that. Really there was not. Would I hump said women if I had the chance. Yes. Married and happy.. No. Yet somehow my wife latched onto this and saw I was lying. She called me out. I came clean. On my own. I got nothing in return. Lesson I learned is wife is smarter than me.

I broke the ice. That little voice will lead you places you hate. I can see the little voice talking to my wife. You can to.

You know what I am saying. Maybe it is cryptic. Maybe no one else understands. 9 times out of 10 I don't understand. Hell at this point I read your response to me and nothing else. I don't even know if this still applies.

I will tell you ..... Trust that little voice. It seems small. It will take time. It will take bending alot more.

But... What have you got to lose?

Stop trying to make sense of it. It won't. I will tell you Littlebitlost and you have alot in common.

After I get kids in bed I will read it all. Maybe I will post something else.