Journaling:

D/R talk today:

From H:

*Its our only option. I feel like it'll be the biggest mistake of my life, but feel I have to do it.

*I hate that you have taken your ring off, but I can't do anything about it.

*I am still here because the kids deserve both of us for as long as possible. And I am enjoying our time together too.

*I hate to think of you moving forward, but can't do anything about it.

*I know the things I would have to change (he listed them, and touched EVERYTHING on my list, and I have never told him my 'list') and I would be willing to do this. It would have to be done to make us work again.

*(next sentence) But I don't think it'll work.

*You won't be able to move past the hurt.

*OW pursued me, but I made choices, all the wrong ones.

*I see now it was immoral to bring the girls around her.

*I don't know what we should do about Florida.

*OW has had 2-3 other affairs that her H does NOT know about (!!! OMG !!!)... I responded "That is horrible of her" and he said "Yes, I agree".

*I see now that yes, the girls will be affected by this D.

*I see now what kind of person OW is. She flirts with everyone. I hate to say it to you, but it drives me crazy when she does this. This is one of the reasons I am distancing myself from her, its not healthy for me to feel this way about someone else while married. Its an f'ing mess.

*I want to help you when you decide where you want to live, where you want to put the girls in school.

* I think we should start spending more time together.

*I will never be close to your family or your best friend ever again(history there of H being wronged).


I said:

*In spite of everything we do to make the girls transition easy, this will be hard on them. They will be the children of divorced parents.

*I am not scared of being alone (without H), but I am scared of permanent decisions and making them prematurely.

*However, I feel I can't wait much longer. You have had a lot of time to make decisions, change your actions, and you continued on.

*I love you, will always love you. But I can only take so much.

(I mostly listened)


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Much more was said, I'll add if I think of them. Can you guys believe the OW??? She is a serial adulterer!!!! Wow, just wow.