Kimmie I sat in church for almost my entire MLC. I felt conviction on many occasions. The pew was more like a hot seat at times. Once, my Pastor even pointed directly at me and asked me how long I was going to sit there in rebellion. I continued to sit because in my MLC state of mind I was very self-righteous. What I did not know at the time was that it was an MLC and one day I would come out of it. When I came of it, it was a nightmare to see the destruction to my family caused by my actions over the previous 3 years or so. It was then that I began to realize that as I sat in church all that time, I'd been being given every single tool that I would need to dig myself out of despair and then my longest battle of all, guilt.
Since then I have DBed with the best of them and backslidden in worse ways than you even see across these boards presently. My backsliding got me a separation agreement, at which time I ceased going to church because I lost my hope. A lot has happened in my sitch since then. My husband and I are close now but we are not without problems. Big problems that I knew only One could handle. So I went back to Him.
Before God helps the ones we pray for, He's going to deal with us. That is why I have asked you on more than one occasion to look at your contributions to this current state of your relationship. It is necessary for restoration.
