O.K., John. Here's the deal. I haven't got time to read every post, but I have to tell you a few more things from experience. No.1 enroll in a class, get busy - I'm not just talking about working out, I'm talking about doing something to improve your mind, improve yourself - something you want to do. Become so busy improving your mind that this mess is not the only thing you think about.
No 2 - I don't know what your last status of moving out is, I still say DON'T., but if you have or if you do - fix your place up really nice. Buy placemats and cloth napkins and napkin rings. Have fresh flowers in a vase. Don't know about other women, but that really impresses me. Keep your place really neat. Every time she is there, make sure it looks good - smells good. Have good music playing. (Is this too much?)
You know, I've been through this once and do not intend to do it again, but the first time, my ex wanted me back when he saw how independent I had become. (Which, unfortunately, has been a thorn in the flesh with my second marriage.) XH wanted me back when he saw I was busy (So busy I hardly had time to think - finished my education, raised two kids, and worked two jobs.) When he thought I might be moving on, he realized he didn't want to lose me. (I, unfortunately did not have the benefit of boards like this and web sites like rejoiceministries.org or things would probably have been different.) I'm not saying move on, I'm just saying improve yourself. Hold your chin up. Do something that makes you proud of yourself. Something that will make D7 proud. Coach a soccer team. You know what you need to do. Somewhere deep inside, you know.
Hey, you know what, I have just given myself a little pep talk. Maybe I need to go back to school and pursue my doctorate. I always go back to school during a crisis, but have not this time; maybe I should.
I am praying for you John. I mean REALLY praying for you. God is the answer and He will show you the way.
Blessings to you and yours - btw, w is yours. LadyDi
