Yesterday was a difficult day for me. I felt lonely listening to my best friend complaining about her H. I couldn't help it and told her she should be greatful that she had her H by her side.
My H did call me twice at work just to ask how the kids were but nothing more. I noticed he asks about the kids and other staff but never directly about me, how am I doing.
Another week will go by with his hectic schedule and this weekend is his time with the kids, so I guess we will not be seing each other as much as we did the last one.
I am OK with myself but as time goes by I am really wondering if it is actually possible to get things right even if he does decide to come back. Is it? I get more & more detached. Is it normal? I know by now I don't need him, I am sure he feels the same way too. I guess I am getting anxious for some real progress.Can't understand why it takes them so long to figure out what they want, whatever that is...
Tonight he called late and the kids were already asleep. He was upset and said "you should call me sometimes as well, I have been waiting for you to call tonight" (so that he gets to talk to the kids). I said I meant to but forgot (true).
Anyway, I'll try to figure out to do something fun this weekend. See how the rest of the week goes...
Kalni
Me 37 H 37 T 11 years M 7 years S 6 D 5 Separated 11/17/07
