This is the last post of my previous thread. I do intend on responding to everyone's questions/comments, as soon as I get a chance.
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Hi everyone-
Thanks so much for all the support. The first thing that came to my mind when H tried to initiate sex last night was all the awful things he said less than 24 hours before. Then, when he got angry with me for denying him, it even pushed things further into the front of my mind. Obviously it was not something he wanted to do out of love or to bring us closer. If it were, he would have told me that he understood or been more considerate.
I don't have much time to respond to everyone right now, but I wanted to say that H has called twice today. He called this morning to apologize for his words and actions on Saturday night. He said, Sue, I shouldn't have yelled at you and said those things and I didn't mean it. Then he called just a few minutes ago to tell me that he took dinner out for me.
Not sure what's going through his mind. Maybe he realizes that I'm ready to walk, ready to let go and he doesn't want to lose the cozy set up he has. That would be my first thought. When we talked this morning, I did thank him for the apology, but told him that I had been thinking about talking to him about all of that tonight and about other things that need to be talked about. He said okay. So, we'll see if the talk happens.
I'll let you all know.
So, it was a quiet night. H called on his way home to say he was running behind. We got snow yesterday and the roads were slick. We ate dinner together and he hinted around about wanting me to go to a movie on Sat. The rest of the night, he read information on some work related community service he has to do while I got D3 to bed. I was wiped and so was he. I fell asleep watching tv and woke up to find him in bed asleep too. Just a quiet night.
I talked to him this morning for a minute. He's been nice the past few days. Not sure what's going through his mind.
I did talk to OW's H yesterday. He said that both he and OW were scheduled to talk to a Marriage Builders counselor on Friday. Last Tuesday, OW cancelled her portion of the session. She told her H that she didn't want to be told what to do and she didn't feel comfortable talking to a C. However, she commented that she does want to start talking to her H. That hasn't happened yet, but he said that she got up with him and cooked him breakfast. He said that it's been odd and uncomfortable, but he's still trying. He encouraged me to be positive and try to stick with it. I understand what he's saying, but tend to lean toward the fact that if my M ends, it will not help his and that's what he's looking at.
