Ok so what do I do now??? Just called H to see how he's doing. He is still in the hospital and thinks he will be there for a few more days. This was supposed to be outpatient surgery...simple. But it didn't turn out that way. Now he has to stay in there. So I ask him if I can come see him. He tells me, "No I don't think so." That hurt...
So, I just say "I see. Well take care of yourself" and hang up the phone. I couldn't talk anymore and its just not the time to say what I really wanted to say at that point. Man did that hurt.
So now what the Hell do I do? I was fine until he came back into my life. I thought I finally had my emotions under control and was off this damn rollercoaster ride!
