Long and Bumpy Road #3

[Startingover2]

Thanks jenny...I do feel better but sorta waiting for the other shoe to drop. I can't help it. Its the pattern and I have been down this road before.

H was good yesterday. He called 3 or 4 times. No texts. The only thing that kind of bummed me out was last night we both didn't have our other kids and he didn't come over. Maybe its jumping ahead, but the days we can spend together without kids is few and far between. Probably won't get another chance until next week. Unfortunately at this point I don't want him around my kids too much until I know he is sincere. They have already had too many ups and downs.

[blindsided1]

Maybe H was feeling a little insecure about asking if he could come over? You never know what they're thinking, right? I pray that things work out for you. I still don't see any hope. I haven't spoken to my H in a week, only a couple texts here and there. Keep us posted, I can't wait to see how things unfold.

[Startingover2]

You could be right blindsided. He just left after coming over to have coffee with me. Its raining and he is slow today so he has some time.

Its more like we are buddies. He does give me a kiss goodbye but I really miss that emotional connection we used to have. I admit I am a bit standoffish out of fear, but its so strange to have your H visit when you used to spend every day and night together.

He did mention that in a few weeks when I get closer to delivery that he would stay here more. Almost like its his duty. I want him here now. Yes, it would be nice to have him here when I go into labor but I am feeling really insecure at the end here and would like him around. I guess he just doesn't see that part. Maybe its a guy thing.

[blindsided1]

I'd give almost anything to have my H care about me and want to spend time with me. At least you get to see him. At least he likes spending time with you. I don't even know what I'm going to get out of him when I get closer to labor. I guess I'll be calling him on my way to the hospital. This sucks.

Its more like we are buddies. He does give me a kiss goodbye but I really miss that emotional connection we used to have. I admit I am a bit standoffish out of fear, but its so strange to have your H visit when you used to spend every day and night together.

Buddies is a good start - I'm sure there are plenty of people here who would take buddies over what they've got right now. You pretty much have to start over from scratch at some point and rebuild it all from the ground up if you are going to make any progress.

I think you'll find that the time you spend together now is a lot more valuable than the days and nights you had together in the past. Maybe it's not the right time, but you'll both start making the most of those small amounts of time, rather than just assuming you are both going to be around whenever.

[JennyF]

Buddies is a good start - I'm sure there are plenty of people here who would take buddies over what they've got right now.

I'd give my left arm for buddies right now...
J~

I'd give my left arm for buddies right now...

No one wants a buddy with one arm

[blindsided1]

I'd take a one armed buddy

[JennyF]

This is a really funny conversation because a few weeks ago, I made a comment to my H that "I am getting used to doing things with one arm"...(because I'm usually breastfeeding or doing something with the other).
And H's response was, "Well now you know how a one armed person feels".

Why did he say that? I think it was uncomfortable banter, but he didn't realize the irony in that HE is the reason I have to do things one handed!!

I guess I have given up my left arm and I'm still not getting buddy out of it!
Sorry...had to share...
J~

[blindsided1]

You're funny Jenny.
SO2, where are you? Hopefully, you've been too busy all day GAL. Hope everything is okay.