Thanks Cinders...my expectations have to be at zero. I journal here so that I can reread all of the peaks and valleys of this ride as not to get my hopes up....for every peak there is a valley. My H had lots of spew during the first year of the crisis. It was so bad I can't even think about it because it hurts so much. I pray that he doesn't return to that...but you never know.
Snodderly, thank you for your words. I pray that he gets himself together but....you are right, it is out of my control.
Journaling:
H took d12 to the orthodontist yesterday. When they got back he left for his counseling appointment. As he left he asked if I had eaten and I had not. He said not to eat and he would be back.
H called after counseling. Sounded a little down but asked if I wanted something to eat. He asked if I wanted Indian, as I had joked before. The restaurant is 20 minutes away (closer to the orthodontist...than home) and I told him it wasn't necessary for him to drive that far but if he wanted to that would be fine.
He did. We had a late dinner and watched tv with d12 until she went to bed. S15 stayed downstairs away from H. Still no movement on that front. When d12 went to bed H left. I went to bed shortly after....woke up this morning to a tm from H wishing me a good night and to stay warm...I must have slept through it.
I did tm him this morning thanking him for taking d12 and for dinner. His reply was brief.
We shall see what the week brings. H does look so tired and so sad. Don't know if this is the face he puts on for me or what. I pray to God his counselor helps him.
So, I will let last night go. Won't read anything into it as I don't know if it was a manipulation tactic or a way to show he cares. I will just leave it as dinner....nothing else.
