I appreciate y'all watching me like a flock of hawks and mother hens.
BF's mom had a scan of some sort yesterday and they told her that the tumor that had been the size of a grapefruit back in November was now the size of a grape! Everything else looked just the same, which is good news. I'm glad for all of us!
Yes, I am grieving the loss of the possibilities of what I thought the R was going to be. But also the lost years-- when I met him I was 53; now I'm pushing 60! I know they aren't really "lost"-- it's true that once you're over the hill you pick up speed.... downhill.
I want to have some FUN before I... well, you know. I want to have fun, love, sex, joy, some carefree times mixed with the inevitabilities of life.
