Hmm. I guess I didn't make it clear enough in my post that I was aware that yesterday I didn't follow DB protocol and was really messing up even though I did write that I did everything wrong yesterday & horribly DB wise? I was really low, depressed, and primarily worried about my brother and his surgery this morning and I think for that reason just didn't have the nerves of steel or whatever and didn't follow the DB plan like I have been doing over the last 6 weeks.
Ohio_Mark, I have been making a sincere effort to follow DB the last 5 or 6 weeks, but had a bad day yesterday. I guess if those aren't sometimes allowable when you are DB'ing (like when your only living family member is set for brain surgery the next day) then DB may not be the plan for me but hopefully there is some forgiveness allowed occasionally??? In retrospect I think the answer for me is that if I know I am having a really stressful day, like my bro's surgery, or taking care of my sick child or something like that, I think I need to just avoid H for the day b/c I think the extra stress is too much for me personally. I should have just spent the day praying for my brother, trying to have positive thoughts, etc. and just avoid my H. Karen43
