Sounds to me like you're going through the grieving process for your relationship. Anger, sadness, etc. I remember when my counselor told me I was going to grieve about the end of marriage #1, and I looked at her like she was crazy. I was a)unable to find enough time to grieve about the recent death of my dad, and b) felt relief that the marriage was over. She was right, of course. Even though the final years of the marriage had been mostly awful, I still had to go through the process of laying it to rest.
And yes, we're watching you for signs of your slipping back into the comfort zone of complacency...back into the relationship you had with him. This is, of course, entirely dependent upon your being honest with us. But you knew that.
