Hmm. B's wife sent me another e-mail on Facebook. In lieu of summarization, I'm quoting it:
Quote:
So I've been noticing that when I see you at gathering and such you don't seem to be very happy with me. I tried to banter with you and chat the way we used to, at [friend]'s party, but you seemed to be rather displeased with me. I think you may have missed my sarcasum (forgive my spelling).
I wrote you before about my thinking you may be upset with me, but I still don't know why. I would like to be a supportive friend, but I am unsure what you need from me. If you would rather I not be supportive I can stop trying, but that is up to you. I do enjoy your company, but it is hard to do so why you don't seem to enjoy mine.
Please let me know what I can do for you.
Your friend,
(her name)
Aside from a couple isolated instances, she hasn't tried to be supportive at all.
The first was during this big group camping thing (hard to explain, but basically a 20-25 person event) I ended up having a 'big cry' and she was there for that; then she and I were mutually pi$$ed at B and my W after their making-out thing...then she forgave 'em within about two or three weeks and they're friends again.
In all honesty, I think that between the fact that she's previously been diagnosed with a general anxiety disorder and the mess of this situation for her, something may've "broken" in her mind. Which may explain why she thinks she's being supportive towards me.
Madness, I tell you.
Anyway, I wrote her and said I'd gotten her e-mail, but needed to think about how best to compose a response (lucky for me it was late, and I used the hour as an excuse).
I'm not even sure why I care about how I respond - but with two pleas of "what did I do wrong", I feel (personally) obligated to give her some sort of response.
EDIT:
On my communications with W note - I did fine Sunday, barely saw her at work.
However, I went to Best Buy with the kid I work with. I had to buy a new printer and needed it that night. While I was passing the external hard drives, I noticed they were really on sale (like, 25% off or something crazy like that).
I knew W wanted one, she'd been talking about buying one. After a short debate with myself I called her cell - and ended up leaving a message.
She called me today - thanking me for telling her about the sale. I thought that was sort of strange, and further thought it was strange she tried to make small talk about other stuff, too. I finally had to cut the conversation short by telling her my dinner was almost done (a small lie - the water had just started to boil).
Is that a marker of guilt? Her noticing that I've been more or less cold-shouldering her?
It's hard, when she's friendly and kind, to remember just how much she's hurt me. And to remind myself that she's simply trying to make herself feel better from the guilt.
One of my friends says "she probably misses you". I find that concept more and more improbable every day.
