Sometimes WAS try to do this, to push our buttons to "remind" themselves why they left and to condone their erroneous ways.
That was how I felt when he was saying it! I felt like he was purposely baiting me, trying to see if I would take the bait or not. It was just so d@mned insensitive.
I know it's bitter, and it goes against everything I've read here, but it just breaks my heart that he seems so blissfully happy, so carefree. I'm sure it's not like that all the time, but to think of all the anguish I've been through, and then to picture him out having fun at bars & clubs, him with OW- having sex, laughing, spending time at his mom's house, and just being all infatuated ... it kills me.
That's MY husband. I bore his daughter, I gave all I had to be his wife and the mother of his child. yet, I'm left holding all the responsibilities of our household, and he's out living the good life. No bills, no childcare responsibilities..... no responsibilities as father & husband, period. No remorse. No loyalty. No love and affection. At least, that's what he's shown me.
Every day that passes, it gets a little easier. It hurts a little less. I find myself more and more. Yet, I feel him farther and farther away. I find myself wanting him less and less. I love him, I love his soul and I love the man I know he is. But where is he? Where is that man who promised to honor and cherish me?
he's out having sex with his 37 year old OW.
*dated at age 12- 15 (me) and age 13-16 (him) *reunited at age 19 (me) and age 20 (him) *me 23, H 25 *married 3 1/2 years, 1 d *dropped ILYBINILWY bomb on 12/19/07 *moved out same day, PA with OW confirmed
