Thanks michael....I am here, its just nothing much has changed in our house.
I was thinking today how scared I was this summer. Terrified of H leaving me, terrified of OW's H leaving her (making her completely available), worried about every phone call, every mood, every word H said. Just plain worried. Today, I am not scared of much these days. Basically I am worried about my kids if we D, but that's about it. I have realized through all this I cannot control any of this, can only react to it, and make the best out of the situation. Try to figure out what I want, hopefully watch H 'recover' from this crisis, and staying close with him without enabling him to cake eat....
