OK, new thread new frame of mind. This one is about me. I'm going to try to focus on myself and the things I'm doing to feel better about me.
I'm going back to counselling and I intend to look at myself and my own demons. H may not be willing to work on things or to even let me in on what really went wrong, but I can still work on me.
My goals have changed. Yes, utimately I want my H back (the one I married, not alien boy), but I've really accepted the fact that this is going to take a long time. So I have an opportunity here to really do myself some good. Be selfish in ways I've never dreamed of!! I will see my time away from the kids as a good thing and not a loss (thanks Brit...) While I can find sadness in this and nearly anything right now, I need to find the good in it too. It's there if I look for it.
There is something strange about feeling like seeing the good means you're ok with the bad (did that make sense). But the situation is not changing just because I don't like it...so I have to roll with it.
On my list this week: - sign up for Yoga/Meditation classes - make an appmt with counsellor - sign D up for gymnastics (YAY!!) - get a set schedule with H for visitation/overnights - have a bath in my giant soaker tub...I don't use it nearly enough!
There's a lot more to do...but this is start. My goals are to stay focused on the tasks and take the time out for me. I'm really enjoying my time with my D lately and she is going to be 3 in 2 weeks...so I'm also going to start brainstorming how to make her Birthday really fun and exciting for her.
Well, those are todays Confessions of a Supermom!
J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
