Horrible day today!!!! Worst ever!! Even though I've had bad days lately I felt I had tried my best and done a decent job, but today I did horribly DB wise--I did everything wrong. H was gone from 8am to 2pm with the OW so I was upset about that. Then my brother is having his brain surgery tomorrow so I am upset about that. I talked to my bro around when my H got home and that was rough.
We then went to the track with the kids to go jog and I was talking to H on the way which I shouldn't have got into it of course very anti-DB of me and I normally wouldn't have done it; he apparently had gone running and then seen the OW and went to his boss' house as well. I got confused and thought the OW went to the boss' house and was upset about that and said "boy, these are classy people" referring to the OW and the boss. It turns out he just ran with the boss, then spent 4 or so hours with the OW after, so I actually apologized later for calling his boss classy.
But then when I tried to use my H's ipod and couldn't figure out how to turn it on, he called me a loser and said I should be able to do it since I am so morally correct, and I just lost it, I said you don't know what morally correct means that has nothing to do with turning on an ipod that means you don't neglect your children like your girlfriend does and when you are married with kids you don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend that's married with kids, that's what morally correct means, it doesn't mean you can't turn on an ipod" b/c really I was upset about my brother and his being with his OW instead of having a husband that could support me when I'm upset about my brother but he's off with OW instead, and calling me a loser on top of it!!! And he says later the way I act when he's doing something sweet like going to the track with the kids and I, that's why I'm going to be alone and I should think about that.
I just feel terrible about the whole day, my life, and everything else. He is so good at making me feel that way! I know I am feeling worried about my brother's surgery tomorrow too, you would think most people would try to be a little bit nicer than he is being today, you'd think. Karen43
