Well, Lisa, you ask a big question with very few words.
I think it is time for me to stop worrying about what W thinks of me, what she's doing, what she's thinking, what she might do, what she might think....... OK, so that doesn't say what kind of person I want to be, but it does bring up some of the things that I think may be keeping me from getting there!
To answer what kind of person I'd like to be, I had to turn the question over, and think of what I'd like to see my kids be. I found it easier to picture through them, than through me, if that makes any sense. So....
I'd like them to be kind and compassionate. I'd like them to not be selfish. I'd like them to be respectful, and respected. I'd like them to work hard, but still know how to have fun.
I think that would be a good start, and a good start for me, too. For me, I think the first step really is to quit moping about W. I can't change her. So, I need to get back to me. Of course, that sounds good on paper, I will need to think some more about how!
