NikB #24

[NikB]

Uuugh SD, that does not sound fun!!! My bro is in San Francisco and sounds like he has something similar. I hope this doesn't last that long but it sure feels like it might.

Thank you!! I feel like I'm doing ok. For some reason the last two nights I have had nightmare after nightmare... all involving H. In one we continue forward as we are now, except we both start dating other people. Still live together, sleep together, etc. but we are basically moving on into new relationships while continuing along as married. We even went to the courthouse together to file for D - me, my boyfriend, him, his girlfriend - but we still lived together!! It was weird. The others mostly involve him flipping out completely (as in total personality change and becoming abusive - which has NO basis in fact). Again.. weird. Not dwelling on it, just kind of noting it.

I know I mentioned this earlier, but mentioning it again as a reminder and to kick myself in the butt a bit. I am sooo trying to get myself motivated to start a true Body For Life workout challenge. The organized / disciplined aspect of it really works well for me. It's that initial motivation that's lacking right now. I'm sure that some of it's my cold, but still, working on getting excited and inspired.

In order to do the "official" challenge I have to start before Feb. 11... trying to really make myself get on board by then and do this!! I did 2 of the 12 week challenges and started a third one years ago and felt sooo good.

I remember crying in frustration the first day when I realized just HOW weak and uncoordinated I was... and crying with pride on the last day when I took my "after" pics and realized how far I had come. At that time I still had a lot more weight to lose but it was still a dramatic change. Now I'm even lighter thanks to the bomb diet... time to get rid of those last pounds and get toned and strong!!

Check out this woman's results:
http://www.bodyforlife.com/challenge/champions/2006/bio.asp?comp=Jen_Weatherman

WOW.. talk about inspiring. Her "beginning" stats are pretty similar to mine, too.

Although for this week my only real goal is to get to my dance class. Probably won't do too great since I'm exhausted after about 20 minutes of anything right now, but I don't want to make excuses to skip it.