Last night I was at H's apartment and I just could not get thoughts of OW out of my mind. For whatever reason I just started thinking about things. I was thinking about the things that he said to me during that time, I just can't even believe some of the words that came out of his mouth. Then I started thinking about how I am walking on eggshells but OW could call him and talk for hours, or text all day. I feel like if I did something like that then I would smother him. I just started getting angry. I had to leave. I just told him that I needed to go home and I left. He told me before I left that it seemed like something was on my mind. I didn't bring any of this up. I just don't know how to ever get over this. I don't know if I can ever get the thoughts of OW out of my mind.
I just don't know how to bring it up or if I should bring it up. I do know I don't feel like I can go on like nothing ever happened. When is an appropriate time to bring up R? I know I am not supposed to, but what if he never does? What if it NEVER comes up?
Maybe I am being dramatic but I really feel like these issues need to be addressed. I guess I need to remind myself about patience.
