Hi Rachel, I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. I'm saying a prayer for you that one day things will come together. Me on the other hand, I am not sure what is going on. H came home last night. Hugged me kissed me told me he wants to try. He wants to be a husband and a father. So where am I? That's what he's been saying for the past 6 months and then he has a mood swing. So here I sit waiting for that to happen again. I need to find the strength not to put up with it anymore. Of course I'm hoping I don't see those mood swings again, but I have to be prepared for it. He took the day off today and we are going to go to the gym together. Right now he is laying in bed recovering from his 7 rounds of golf in 4 days trip. Tomorrow is our anniversary. Not sure right now there is anything to celebrate considering I feel that the past 15 years was a fantasy in my mind. It's all up to him now so I guess I'll have to wait and see.
