Thank you cog, i must have a new vision. my marriage as i know it is dead. there can be a new relationship , much better than the old.
Aha! grasshopper, now you're starting to understand. The past is behind you, may it rest in peace. Only God knows what the future may hold for you, so let Him be in control. The present! The present is where you are, what you are, and how you are. Stay in the present for now. When you start to feel the worry, fear, pain, gag reflex, etc. just stop thinking about the past and future, and consume yourself with the present.
God has a purpose and a plan for YOUR life. Everything happens for a reason. Stay the course, be courageous, curteous, friendly, supporting, strong, and faithful. Recognize that fear and selfishness are evil tools aimed to cripple you. It's spiritual warfare that goes far beyond our M's.
God bless you, heal you, and lift you up.
Love,
COG
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