If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself but to your own estimate of it; and this you have the power to revoke at any moment -Marcus Aurelius
Yes, I sure do have a nasty habit of trying to figure out why people do what they do to me! It is usually a waste of time and energy and what ends up happening is the interpretations are what I end up responding to, not the reality. Again, we can never truly know what goes on in the mind of another, even when they tell us it is not necessarily so! What we can control is what we fill our minds with, I can come up with a zillion reasons why W treats me as she does or why Coffee Buddy decided to kiss me off but they have absolutely nothing to do with anybody's reality but my own. I am creating my own version of reality to fit my emotional world. It makes more sense to turn to what will bring light into our lives versus more darkness. We must become the joy in our own hearts, there's really no other way, is there? I'm trying.