I feel your pain. Contrary to most responses you've had here, and contrary to what you've said you believe, I believe your W is telling you the truth. She is NOT sexually attracted to you, the chemicals are just not there. That's reality, that's the truth, so where to go from here?
The first thing you can do, after you accept this reality, is to let her know you understand and believe her. The longer you stay in disbelief, denial, the longer she will be on the defensive. When you acknowledge her feelings, validate her, she won't have to continue trying to convince you.
The second thing to do is to move on with YOUR life. Your M is dead, it'll NEVER come back. It's not your heart that's died, nor your liver, or brain, it's your dream. The vision you had of what your life was going to be like. Start today and develop a new vision, or better yet, for now just live in the moment, stay in reality. Move on with YOUR life, let go your expectations, get YOURSELF in order, pray like crazy, and watch the miracles unfold in such a way as you could never have expected.
Do not idolize your W or your M. They are things of this world, and will fade away. Focus on spending eternity in heaven. Know that there are people in this world fighting for their last breath as we speak, or others in prison, mental institutions, starving in the desert. Living in this world involves a large amount of suffering, like fire purifies the gold, we too shall suffer.
May Jesus carry your burden, and relieve your pain.
God Bless,
COG
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