She's ready to move on

[Michael Mc C]

Ahh, the ol' bait and switch tactic, my W is becoming a pro at that one (and I appear to be the consummate sucker - a little 3 card monty anyone?)

So in the past 2 weeks W has alluded to intimacy 3 times but has had a change of heart every time. Yesterday morning was quite a bit more than alluding however. Me, being me, thought this was fantastic and because I was so very much looking forward to it, W got EVERYTHING she asked for yesterday.

Sucker!!

By the end of the night she was feeling depressed, pressured and told me once again that I have all these crazy expectations.

So, either I am failing some tests here (approval seeking, pushing, whatever) or my wife just knows how to get things to go her way.

One day I may learn this stuff. I went to bed last night (alone of course) asking myself why I continue to let this happen and why I get sucked back in so easily. The answer, of course, is that I still feel she controls my happiness and that if it feels like we're married then we can't be too far from REMAINING married.

I need to kick this addiction. Time to refocus (again). My guess is that she saw my indifference at the party on Friday and again on Saturday and needed to pull me back in. She needed to feel safe without committing to anything. She knows the way I roll...

Gotta stop rolling that way!!! She sees me "slipping away" and casts her line. She knows I will always take the hook. Catch and release is her M.O. She pulls me in, she's satisfied with the results and throws me back.

Where does that leave me? Right here wondering why I haven't made any progress for me. Oh well, this will sink in one day. It had better...