Just not ready yet, maybe. I does take time after decades to detach all the way. I find I am also better in the day than in the eve. Today I was thinking, what did I think and talk about before all this happened. I have been trying to focus on that thought. Also, I have been thinking that a year has gone by and most of it I was wrapped up in my H's mess. I was thinking of all the great things I could be doing if I wasn't thinking about him.
Not sure you need to leave him in the past or hate as much as retrain your mind to enjoy yourself when you are alone. Before all this what did you do when your H was not at home?
