Lil the stuff I endured (including a bout of shingles!), Lil, you posted a link on SSM, to an old thread you had a long time ago on another forum. I clicked on the link and even went back to when you had the shingles.
Comparing that person to the person I am reading about today, I see a woman in a lot better frame of mind.
I tried to tell myself I wasn't feeling bad, or it wasn't that bad, or it would get better, or it WAS getting better... Yes, I remember many post like that.
This broken ankle "gave me a break" that I needed and enabled me to "break" with the past. It gave you a reason to be selfish or really a reason to do some self care.