Grace O & Palgal, Yeah we danced and sang and had a blast. My confidence is getting a little better everyday. When all of this first happened I could hardly look anyone straight in the eyes. Now that I know I tried so hard to reconcile with him and it simply was still not enough, it reassured me that all of this is a result of his own internal issues, and theres nothing I could or can do to fix it. We truely did have a wonderful M and wonderful fullfilling life togeter, and nothing in the world will ever make me think differently (even all of his negative talk and hurtfull things he is doing now will ever change my opinion of what we once had). I feel I can now open up to more people in a close and meaningfull way, and that I am actually getting stronger due to all of this. Every one I know has been telling me that they are so happy to see me doing/acting/being the real person that I am, and not letting this situation devastate me like it did after the first bomb hit. Many of my friends have told me that I am the first person that they have ever seen actually do what advice always says to do (which is to let go and detatch & still live life to its fullest) when most would just crumble and die inside. I am still very sad, but I know I will make it through this no matter what and that my life will forever be changed for the better. One of my closest girl friends wrote me a small note that said that "she admires me and the way I look at every situation in life, even the bad ones- and how I try to always find the good in each situation, and that I make her want to try and be a better person herself". I cried when I read it alone, it was very touching and uplifting.
The worm is a specific dance from the 1980's (break dancing move, I think), where you lay on the ground and push off your arms, toes, and stomach to inch along the floor up and down just like an inchworm. Crazy- I know, but very fun to do, and always gets laughs and good reactions out of others that watch it.
Palgal, if you want to take ballroom dancing, I strongely recommend it, there must be a place that offers it through an instructor instead of your partner. Look into it, I promise you would not regret it. I took three dance classes in college and they were so much fun and I will never forget the experience. My partner was a football player who really wasn't too interested in the whole class but it was a requirement. As the weeks went on, I could see him starting to actually like it. And one day at the end of the course, he actually told me that he loved it after all, and actually looked forward to coming and dancing with me, and was sad it was ending. It is SOOOOO worth it, try it. TIPPER
