Did you talk to your sponsor about the predicament? Perhaps he would have some better insight if you just told him eveythng about the D. I would even include the DB aspect as it is pretty important to you.
From my perspective, just getting it done and done quickly would be a priority. No sense prolonging the painful inevitiable.
Not sure what the pink clould is but it sounds like no fun! Best of luck and hang in there, buddy.
Best, --Chris
Me: 40 She: 31 S: 5 D: 3 Married: 8 years (05 DEC 99) Blow-up: 02 JUN 07 Piecing (More like Ostriching): 22 FEB 08
