Red Head Wife, I had replied to you in the above post as well, but I must have deleted it somehow.
Anyway, I in now way thought you were saying I was a bad wife or was at fault. I know exactly what you were intending to say in your posts and I appreciate it.
And yes, I have to forgive myself for these things. The hard thing about this is that I'm not completely sure what they are. H NEVER discussed them with me. Yeah there were tidbits of things here and there...but since he basically said it was over with no chance of trying, we never did go back and discuss what went wrong. Some of this I believe is because there really wasn't a whole lot wrong. I'm not saying I was perfect (no way), but there was nothing too earth shattering. I read an article on these boards once that says the romantic affairs happen more commonly in perfectly fine marriages than it does in troubled ones. This is first and foremost H's crisis...he's been dealing with this for a long time, which I have just begun to realize.
So I'll work on my while he's off galavanting with the aliens somewhere!!
Thanks for your help. J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out