Lwb, I also realize that the person I was becoming right before the bomb is also dead and gone. And good riddance. I was not happy and very lost, very bewildered with the outcome of our lives. I can't say what lies ahead or where I am actually headed in my new course, but I know where I am not going, at least no longer. I feel I am now slowly getting my life back on track.
My thanks and gratitude for your support.
CORRECTION: I stated above "Absolutely nothing good would come from trying to say anything to her or W's sister." I meant to say, "Absolutely nothing good would come from trying to say anything to her or MIL's sister." Actually, W's sister still appears to be staying as neutral and even-handed as she possibly can, so I still consider her open-minded.
