It is pretty exciting...and also very terrifying. I never thought it would be terrifying. I just had that one goal in mind of "getting him back" and I didn't really plan past that. He did just send another email saying that he was honestly excited about coming back...that is the first time he hasn't seemed aprehensive about it.
He went today and reserved the u-haul for Friday. He is getting a hitch put on his car on Thursday. I guess things are moving along...and he should be here this weekend!!
Yes, tomorrow is moving day. He probably won't be here until Saturday though. I am pretty excited. I did talk to him for a really long time tonight...so he didn't seem to be spending his last night with OW .
My company finally called him this afternoon and he has an interview on Tuesday morning. We will see how that goes.
His parents are coming Saturday to help him unpack. I am not sure if I mentioned this before, but my hometown is not his hometown. His family lives about 3 hours from here...so it is a pretty big deal that he is moving HERE.
I am going to let him figure out the job situation and then I will bring up counseling. I know he is willing to go, I just don't want to seem too pushy too soon. He has always been pretty open and able to talk about things so hopefully when we do go, it will go well.
Well, H got here at about 7 am yesterday. He called me and I met him at the apartment and got everything moved in. He kept saying that he was so excited to be here. I spent the whole day with him. We went shopping and fixed up the aptartment a little, went to lunch and then went to a movie last night. After the movie I told him to go home and get some rest...he had been awake for about 36 hours straight. It was about a 15 hour drive.
It was so nice to spend the day with him and not be worried about when he is leaving. I really can't believe he is actually here. I feel like now I can relax and give him some space and take things slow. I do think he needs some time just to himself...which he wasn't getting when he was living with OW. I am so glad that she is physically out of his life. He may still be talking to her...but at least he can't see her.
Last night I was at H's apartment and I just could not get thoughts of OW out of my mind. For whatever reason I just started thinking about things. I was thinking about the things that he said to me during that time, I just can't even believe some of the words that came out of his mouth. Then I started thinking about how I am walking on eggshells but OW could call him and talk for hours, or text all day. I feel like if I did something like that then I would smother him. I just started getting angry. I had to leave. I just told him that I needed to go home and I left. He told me before I left that it seemed like something was on my mind. I didn't bring any of this up. I just don't know how to ever get over this. I don't know if I can ever get the thoughts of OW out of my mind.
I just don't know how to bring it up or if I should bring it up. I do know I don't feel like I can go on like nothing ever happened. When is an appropriate time to bring up R? I know I am not supposed to, but what if he never does? What if it NEVER comes up?
Maybe I am being dramatic but I really feel like these issues need to be addressed. I guess I need to remind myself about patience.
Well, tomorrow is the big interview day for H. I really hope he gets this job. It is a really good job. He called me to come over tonight to prep him for the interview and wanted my opinion on what he was wearing. I think he will do well...I am keeping my fingers crossed.
I am hoping once the job thing is figured out then we can start working on our problems.
Hope the interview goes well! I know what you mean, I think about my H's ex-OW a lot, too. Guess it will fade with time, and once H can address some of your concerns, which will also come with time...
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