W less angry with me, but not ready for piecing

[Lanzo]

For the second week running W and I rented movies and stayed in, we had popcorn and wine to drink. We watched an all action drama and a light hearted comedy. Things felt good. We went to bed together and chatted, W said she feels good cos shes enjoying her weekends with me. Well we chatted more until we reached that awkward silence before sleep, this time I thought I'd do something different, I put my arm around her which was ok, then I made a slight move and she said NO!! (Note: slight move was forearm against breast).

I won't say much more cos this is how our old patterns of behaviour starts, her rejecting me, me getting frustrated and ignoring her, her feeling overlooked and turning to OM. I can see it but can W ? Sh*t!!! what a cr*p cycle to be in.

Actually I will say more, I don't consider this to be a backslide, more a deeply frustrated man trying to build on some positive moves forward and trying for some intimacy with W, obviously she not ready, not by a long way. Ok, I'm doing my best and she very happy (up to a point) but what about me ? (Answers on a post card please).

So I'm gonna spend ALL Sunday morning in the gym and work off whatever I need to work off , come home and get back to doing what works.