(E....
standing up,
brushing the dust off of my pants,
fluffing my hair,
and fixing myself up.....ahhhh
that's better)

Last week was a tough one. I don't realy know why it was,but I'm moving on.

Well it seems H has been looking at houses.

Maybe he is going to move out.

I'll cross that one when I get to it.

Possibly the reason why he has been so distant lately.

I have gone into the past posts and am getting a lot of
info.

But what struck me the most is the information about what kickstarts the MLC.



I think it was when H's mom passed in 1997.

H and S's found her.(annurism) Devestating for him and the kids.

Then his dad passed away 3 years later.2000

H starts meds from depression.

Also was there when his dad died in the hospital.

I had hysterectomy in 2002.

I switch jobs and move from custodian (17 years) to human resources. H hates his job and the place. Always told me too much drama there.

Love my job and talk about all the positives and great people.

H learns he has high blood pressure. Has to take meds.

H brother has heart murmmer.

H starts to realize immortality.He is the next generation to die.

S starts college and other S struggles with high school in a big way!

And so it begins.....MLC!

(Lot's of other stuff in between but i thin you get the drift)

I had to go through all of this , why didn't I see all that was happening?

Should I talk to H and let him know that now I understand why he is in such a fog?

He has a right to be because of all that he went through.

Not that it gives him the right for the A, but that I vallidate the way he is feeling.

Should I write it down in a letter?

I don't think he even realizes the tie-in.

Anyone????


Enlightenedbylife

"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"

Being the calmness in the storm......