Tomorrow is three months since we separated. Time flies when you're...well, it flies anyway! W and I are pretty much where we were three months ago. She still treats me on most occassions like an object to be avoided. We do the family stuff but it's really just about being family for the kids, she has no interest in me or what I'm doing, feeling whatever. When I do speak to her on the phone I ask how she is and her response is "I'm fine" with, of course, no return inquiry. It's all business e.g. "are you taking D to appt or am I?" I have been courteous and at infrequent times inquisitive about her with poor results, so I don't do it anymore except to politely say "how are you". How sad that after 17 years my W can't even ask "how are you", those pesky telemarketers get more courtesy than me! Oh well, I'm not gonna lose sleep over it. I've got a life to build, with or without her. It's strange though, periodically she will do things like bake me a quiche, drive to my apt and let D10 deliver it and drive away. Be nice but make no contact. When I say "periodically" that is what I mean, normally it's just no contact or businesslike responses to any interaction. I still pray for her and care about her but, in all honesty, feel no desire to win this woman back. Is that normal? I just can't understand this need to shunt me to the side like a piece of used furniture. I don't spew anger at her or make hurtful remarks, I'm OK with just getting along. I pretty much gave up. So what the heck is her issue? Is it guilt or is it that she just couldn't give a f@ck about a man she lived with for 17 years, raised two children with, who was loyal and caring and never did anything to purposely hurt her. Beats me.
