JennyF- I was praying for you and thinking of you during my 2am pumping session (thought you'd appreciate that!) and have a few more thoughts regarding your GAL plans. I know that's been difficult to do for yourself, but you will benefit from thinking how GAL will help your kids. Getting most of your happiness from your children can put a real strain on kids. It seems like it's great to have such an attentive mom when you're really young, but it becomes a lot more difficult once they get older- they want their independence and it becomes hard for them to reach out b/c they know how much you need them. They can either rebel or stifling themselves b/c they don't want to "leave" you.
It's also important to set a good example for them- demonstrate to your D that she can be a strong, independent, HAPPY woman without a man. Demonstrate to your S that leaving a woman doesn't leave her without happiness and hope- life goes on for her. Think of yourself as a role model and the GAL will come.
Just my thoughts. Still thinking of you.
Me-33, H-37 M-10yrs/T'gthr-13+ Twins- born 12/07 ILYBNILWY- Thanksgiving '07 He moved into apt 12/23/07 Expecting twins in days and husband left...