I just caught up on your thread. I am so sorry to hear about the filing. That is like a knife through the heart, and my heart goes out to you. But I wanted to tell you, your attitude and your actions are truly inspiring to me. Thank you for sharing your fight with us, because it makes me feel stronger. I pray for your wife to move towards you with open arms and an open heart.
I know it is hard to see right now, but I see many encouraging things in your situation, including that your W called you because she was worried about you. That is a loving action, even if probably seems totally negligible given that she just filed papers, she still cares about you, and is showing it, which is something others on this BB would do anything to experience.
i cant explain why i got mad. i went to a movie by myself. w left a message on my phone saying she was worried about me. my heart feels like it is broken again. how many times can my heart be broken. my weakness belittles me.
I think it is great that you went to see a movie by yourself and gave yourself some space. Maybe it's because I'm a W, but I don't think it's weakness for you to feel heartbroken. It is actually a great strength that you are still vulnerable to your W because you still love her and care for her. Even if it is unbearably painful.
I also recommend the 5 Love Languages! And have you read the sex-starved marriage yet? Maybe not the best one to let your W see you reading, but it should also give you insight into what she has been going through as the low-drive partner.
