OK sex starved here we go...

[mymonkeybug]

I know this isn't exactly the sex starved this forum was designed for but I felt this the best place to post this.

Our marriage was never sex starved however now that H is gone I am having a tough time without the sex from him. To bring folks up to speed that don't know my story...H in major MLC, left 3 days before Xmas saying the ILYBNILWY garbage and that he needs to go experience the life he had always wanted but never had with me for the 15 years we were married. We are still very civil, almost like super friends and yes I backslide at times and get clingy and needy and have finally realized I HAVE to STOP as it really DOES push him away more. Now onto the sex part...

...intimacy is a HUGE part of all marriages. I desire so much to be intimate with him right now and miss that closeness and bonding. So much so that I have asked him twice if we could and his response is always, "Will you stop!" Please someone out there help me to figure out ways to be able to work past this intense need to be intimate with him so I am not asking him for that intimacy. And it is so very hard whenever I see him to contain myself and I see him 2-3 times a week as we have 2 kids that he still comes to see and spend time with. I can't even be near him to smell him without wanting to BE with him!!!

Yes, maybe TOO MUCH INFO. but please help me figure this one out. I am sure I am not the only spouse here that feels or has felt this way.