Faith being an ACTION and not just something I possess, I moved in faith today.
You may recall that in October of 2006, when I signed the separation agreement, I took our wedding bands to the jeweler and had them bound together.
Today after work, I took them back to the same jeweler and asked him to separate them. As he was filling out the ticket he asked me if I was still a "Mrs". I said "Yes, Sir. I am".
Come Thursday, I'm putting my wedding band back on.
When I left the jewelry store, I went to pick up my daughter to take her to get a haircut. Her Dad's truck wasn't there. He'd been watching SD17's son with his Dad because she's back in the hospital due to her cystic fibrosis. Anyway, he pulled in as I was sitting in my car in the driveway watching her jump on the trampoline. He pulled beside my car and up a little further. As I watched him stepping out of the truck, I knew he was in pain just by looking at his face. We haven't spoken in exactly 3 weeks. I have missed him. D12 ran up to him and gave him a hug. He walked over to my side of my car and I looked up at him and said "You don't feel good". He said "No". I asked him what it was. It's still his neck and shoulders. His Doctor scheduled him to come back to see him 2/19. So he's out of work for another month at least. They're talking about physical therapy... I hate to see him like this. I went into the house with him and D12 for a minute. She ran back out to the car and we stood at the front door talking. I gave him a hug and said I was sorry about everything. He hugged me back. Nothing else was said. I took D12 to get her hair cut and styled. Then I dropped her off at the dance. I'm picking her up in an hour and running her skating. Then from there I will pick her up again and take her home.
Last night was actually the first time since going back to church that I really prayed seriously, face down - the whole nine yards - for him and the kids. I ended by thanking God for the restoration of my family, in whole and in part.
Now all that's left to do is walk in that until I see the manifestation.
I'm so happy to see that you are getting your relationship with Jesus back on track. To be honest, I never really knew how far you'd slipped from His counsel. Man, we sure do wear some good masks don't we. I'm not slighting you at all.... I've been there too.
I do worry about you girlie. You've been through so much in this journey.... standing up, standing down, standing still. I'm not surprised that you need to just sit for awhile. You're a strong chica.... I'm praying for your strength to continue to increase.
So, what's the plan for YOU this weekend.... not all you do for everyone else..... Treat yourself Amy.... you need it and you deserve it!
Psa 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.
I have to presume that everything I've already been through has prepared me for this, L-n-F. And uphill it is. But I am accustomed to that and I am certainly not afraid.
S15 and I just spent the last hour or so at the house with D12 and H. He told me some things. Like the house is about to go into foreclosure. About an hour and half prior to finding that out, my mother had said to me that me going back to church won't help my husband.
Narrow mind.
She can't grasp the fact that it is what will empower me to help him eventually help himself.
How on earth could she expect me to do anything less than everything within my power to help him? I can't save him. I know that. But I know the One that can. And I'm going to get him there one way or the other.
He never left me.
And I'm not going to leave him like this.
It just ain't happening.
So it's supposed to snow tomorrow. Possibly 3-6 inches.
I would like to be snowed in at the house with my husband and kids.
Hey, if you won't dare to dream it, you ain't ever gonna see it...
I read your posts last summer, when I was actively hurting from my separation. I stopped coming here, because I was busy GALing. Long story short for now, I am back, again, reading and drawing comfort from others posts. I also posted a very sanitized, short version of my story. None of this really matters for now. But I do have a question for you. On page 6 of this thread is a beautiful posting from a husband. How can I access the entire thread?
