Well, I was so bummed about this kid and moving thing I decided to throw a party....yes I am! TA-NOITE!!!!
But, something gave me a little hope today. H came over this morning and noticed all the furniture pushed aside and asked if I had a party. I was like..."having one tonite"...just as pleasant as I could be. I had some music playing while I was cleaning and getting ready for the party. We have the same taste in music and he commented about it.
H: Awww man!! No you not playing my cut! M: Man...U don't know nuthin' bout that! H: That's a cut! Been out for a long time. M: This the shyte dude! H: I want that on my IPod. M: Well just download it. H: Have to be computer literate to do that. M: Well let me know when u want to do it and we can do it. H: U can do it here? M: Yup H: OK, I will. I want that song.
Real pleasant interaction. Was really nice.
So he was getting ready to leave and I had to ask...I know I shouldn't but I had to. He has been kinda coming around so I was just temperature taking....I know...I see ya eyes rollin'!
Well, I asked him if he ever thought about us getting back together. I was real nice...for real...I was smiling and diggin the music and just asked really casually. He actually said, "Yeah sometimes...I just got so much on my plate right now." I just smiled and said, "OK". As he was walking out he hugged me and said, "I'll see you later." I patted him on the back and said, "Take it easy dude. It'll be alright." He smiles and says, "Yeah. Have fun at your party."
So, all in all, a pretty decent episode with him. Gives me a little insight into what is going on with him. I think he still cares but has too many obligations right now and needs time to sort everything out. And it's like they say on this board a lot...'it's really not about you, it's about them'. Before today, I was on the verge of throwing in the towel....forget it...I'm done. I even called an attorney (he didn't call me back yet) but I made the call. Now I'm having doubts again. This back and forth is draino....on the real!
I think I'm just gonna sit tight....keep it light....and do me! PARTY OVA HERE!!!!!
