I think I feel smothered

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Well i think I can move over here from Seperated...My H has been almost back for a week now. Tonight he is at his apartment packing the rest of his stuff and probably going out with his friends down there. I really don't know how I feel about it. It feels okay to have him gone for a night but on the other hand it makes me wonder if he can give up his single life. He has moved half of his stuff in already and I know I should believe what he is saying to me, but I am still having trust issues. I don't have any proof that there was another woman, but I did have my doubts. i think if there is OW, she is out of the pic now. He seems like he does want to be here and we have got along all week. I am feeling a little smothered though. i was getting used to being alone and doing what i want when i want. Now, I feel like I have to run around his schedule. It is a little frustrating at times.

So how do I get over this? And how do you regain trust again. I am having a hard time with this. His cell goes off all the time and he is so wrapped up in his drama from his single life. It is getting to me. He was never so involved with other peoples drama before. Now he seems to live for it. I find it very weird. He does talk to me about it and what's happening. i try to let it not bother me especially in front of him, but it does. There are too many women phoning my H. If rolls were reversed and it was a whole lot of men calling me he would be very angry.

Anyways, I am happy that he is home and yesterday was the first day I got a real ILY in 5 months. That was kinda nice. I do know that this is just a new roller coaster that I am on. I just hope I cann make it through this part too so we can get to the good stuff. Taking it one day at a time.