Not much to report - W is really quiet and sickly today. Went out to dinner together, came home and watched TV for a while. Interesting episode of House is on TV when his ex-wife is trying to decide if she wants to go back with him, or stay with her new husband.
No key from W yet, but I didn't ask about it. She asked me tonight if I had the money for my new place (duh) - Not sure why she thinks I'd start the process and not have the money together to follow through. She keeps telling me how great the place is and how she is living in a hole. She spent a month looking for a place and two months moving - I did it all in about two weeks, and apparently came out ahead.
W keeps telling me stupid stories about her friends at work and OM. She was supposed to go to a baptism on Sunday for a friend at work, but she doesn't want to go anymore. She never seems to miss an opportunity to complain about people, including OM, as if it is some sort of BS to cover her tracks. Other than going out last night, she has spent the whole week with me - No IM with OM at night, no running around trying to hide stuff. Well, maybe she is hiding stuff, but I'm not sure when she'd have time to do it.
I'm really feeling like I need to move on - Moving into a new house seems like a fresh start for me, and certainly feels like it's 'mine' and I don't need to include W in the plans for it. I've really been spending too much time with W in recent weeks, which I think has caused a lot of anxiety. She seems perfectly fine with me since I moved in - I don't even feel any stress between us when we're watching TV together or trying to clean up the house when D is in bed.
So I guess I'm a bit confused with myself... You'd think moving back in with a WAS would reinforce the feelings of wanting to be together, but it seems like it's doing the complete opposite with me. Maybe I'm just seeing my W in her 'natural state' for the first time in three months and seeing the shell of the person I married. It's not even as if she has some wonderful new life without me - I don't think I've ever seen her so depressed and unhappy as she has been in the last few weeks.
I guess we have a couple more weeks of what we have right now - Hopefully it'll be calm and pleasant like it is right now.
Time to head to bed and sleep with my W. Weird to even write that.
