Oh, JennyF, I feel for you! All I've read is just your most recent post but I am so sorry. It sounds like that conversation was a real blow. But don't be so hard on yourself- you have shown some amazing insight in your post. You have outlined some really good things you need to do- now take charge and do them! As far as being alone in the house tomorrow, get out! Do something! Get dressed up, put on makeup, go to a movie, take yourself out to lunch, go to a museum, volunteer, do something for yourself! Bake a cake if that's what you really want to do, but I think you need to get out. It will make you feel better.
This message board can be really helpful but you're right, it can also be stifling and get in the way of your GAL plans. Remember that this sitch is just one part of who you are- it is an event in your life but it doesn't define who you are. You are insightful, generous, and helpful to others. Now get out and do something for YOU!
I'll be thinking of you.
MO2
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