Sure, you could have been a better wife - who couldn't? And you probably have issues you should work on. But NOTHING you did justifies what your H has done here - okay????
I hope there was nothing that I posted that made you think you were all at fault or were a bad wife!
I guess I've just "been there, done that" with the beating myself up and just feeling absolutely sick to my stomach over what I couldn't change. I had to face those things head on, choose to forgive myself and then move on. There was nothing I could change about the past. That's all I was trying to get across.
Like I said, I think you are doing wonderfully considering your sitch.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10