Well I finely did it. I made the last two reservations for my “vacation”. I had a sick feeling in my stomach when I was doing this….like I so wish W was coming with me. But then this other feeling started to show its ugly head. When I was looking at the pictures of the hotel room I stated seeing visions of W and OM. Planning there meet…I am really nerves about this…..What am I doing???? I am sorry but I can’t confront W now… not before I go… I hope you all are around because I made sure the rooms have internet and I will really need your support… I have been a “WE” for sooo long……. Why ……….Don’t know if I posted this but W got notice that her unemployment has run out….. This is not going to do our situation any good. …. This is why today I made the reservations… I have money saved (X mas gift cards)…..So nothing besides gas (for my jeep). Can stop me…….Don’t be mad at me but sometimes I wish I could be like the OM and just say FU@K it and find someone to go with me…… On the way home from work a rock hit my windshield and broke it….. $100.00 deductible but that’s ok. Boy are new windshields clear……..I need to talk to wife……. I need to tell her things are NOT ok…… But son is always around…. I don’t want to start anything around him……. This is why I think talking when I am on vacation will be better…… My plan is to call when I get to my first stop. And then go dark for the next two days…. I have my son’s e-mail so I will still E mail him EVERY NIGHT………. People at work are wondering why I am going by myself….. I think they have seen me on this board……Ok I need to go…… W is over MIL house and I suggested to see she wanted Pizza… well wife just called and want me to pick one up and go over there…. I will be back soon
Dr Love
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
