Isn't it a shame that we have to go through this. Telling your spouse ILY is totally normal, but yet we have to sit back and wonder did we say too much? Did we not say enough? I sent my H a text last night saying thanks for all you do. I added a few extra lines, but nohting too sappy and no ILY for G-Ds sake, but I got nothing. Not even a simple thanks. I know we are supposed to hold back in what we say and do, but it feels like not only do we have to accept not knowing them anymore, but now we have to change who we are. Typically, I am bubbly, up beat and loving naturally and I just have to cut it out when H is around. This is the part when I start wondering is it worth it. H has mentioned for 2 weeks straight that a movie is coming out that he wants to see. I want to see it too. He brought it up again tonight and I would love to ask him to go, but I can't. It is absurd. We both want to go, we know we have a good time when we hang out. there is not the pressure or drama of a date, it is just two friends going out, but I can't ask. Bannanas! I know this is what we have to do, but it just starts to take a toll. If I want to say ILY I should be able to say it without wondering about the aftermath. I know this is our life for the next few months, but man am I tired of it.
My point here BJ is I feel ya. I don't have advice cuz it would be like the blind leading the blind. I just wanted you to know that I am going through the exact same thing on my end. I so feel ya!
