Atlas... Thanks for posting to me. I appreciate it.
it sounds like you are really at a good place. I think DBing is all about doing what works and becoming a better person, not only for the M, but for yourself as well. You may not be doing DB techniques, but you seem to be doing what works.
Take your time, figure out exactly how you feel and what it important to you. Maybe not yet (unless you find a good time) but I think it is important that you let your W know how you feel about partying and alcohol and faith. I'm sure that these are things she's thinking about as well (if she knows anything about the program).
You are doing great. Just keep it up!!
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown