Fish thanks - feeling so down this week - I know how you feel too. How do you cope with the lonliness? The feeling of Is this what my life is now? I wish I would have appreciated what I had. You take your life for granted when your married and have kids. You just do your daily routine and sometimes think oh I wish my life was more exciting just thinking your marriage is a given never thinking it could happen to you - the big D. (But never to the distorted extent our spouses have and have an affair and leave). But that every day life is happiness. Happiness is just the everyday life with no emotional trauma. Then when you experience what we have experienced with the shock of the end of our relationships you realize what you had and say oh so that was happiness - I just didn't know it. Trying to GAL - trying to let go and move on but this week starting a new job has had the opposite effect I thought it would. I miss him. I keep thinking how if we were together I would call him on lunch and tell him how everything is going. Just feeling so down - way down. Cat - I'm afraid to call my H or email him anything personal - even just to say lets have coffee and be friends for our D. I just think he would either not respond or just say no thinking it was a ploy to get him back and push him even further away. I dont know??
